That's just crazy talk!

I can’t stinkin concentrate on anything for the life of me today. Maybe because it’s Friday? Maybe because my brain can’t handle anymore? Maybe I just need a nap? Who knows. Either way, I’m useless today.

Exciting news... my “nephew” Dexter was born on Tuesday! He is so darn precious! Here is a photo of me and Dex (that I stole from Sarah :))



Now, don’t get me wrong… I’m thrilled that Dexter is here, however, that means that I am without his mother for 8 stinkin weeks at work! It is rather odd not seeing her every day. I’m counting down the days until her return!

So, my birthday is coming up. I haven’t really given it a whole lot of thought this year and I’m not very excited. I love birthdays, especially my own but this year it’s just different. Maybe it’s because I’m getting older? Maybe it’s because it’s my first birthday without my dad? Who knows. Maybe I’ll get more excited when it gets closer. Until then – whatever.

Another random thought – my life is boring. I wake up, go to work, go home and do nothing. I can’t even fester up the energy/care to clean or decorate the house. It’s just the same old thing every day. I asked Phil if we could have a date night tonight hoping that it will help me get out of my funk. The only thing we could come up with is dinner at the Hammond Hotel (the usual). We would usually add a movie to the agenda but there is nothing good playing. That’s all we can think of?! Jeeze- where is the fun, the spontaneity?

That’s all the random thoughts I have for now. Back to work… if I can get it together. Maybe I should just go to lunch.

I know I haven’t written a blog in a while. I’ve been trying real hard to write at least once a week. Lately, however, I have failed. Sometimes I just have nothing “blogworthy” to blog about. I guess I have plenty to say but some is just too private to blog about. Let’s see… where did I last leave you? I think it was before my birthday/Halloween. Let’s start there. I had a fabulous birthday. Phil got me a new camera and I love it. My old one just didn’t work right and most of my pictures turned out like crap. I was 99.99% sure that I wasn’t getting Winston (the super cute golden retriever puppy that I have blogged about in the past and wanted for my birthday present from Phil) but I have to admit that I was slightly disappointed that he wasn’t my present. Not that I didn’t love my present I got! Oh well, I’ll have him someday. Josh and Lynsie’s Halloween party was fun and I got to sleep in the next day which is always nice. I ended up having to do a little bit of homework on my birthday but not too much. After I got my homework done I watched movies and took a nap until my friends came over. Once they got to my house we went to the Orchard for dinner. Yum :) Then we went back to my place and played games until it was time to get ready and go out to the Dive. I think I am getting old because I just can’t handle staying up real late for 2 nights in a row. I am used to going to sleep at 10:00 every night, not staying up until 2:00 A.M. (or even later). So I had a lot of fun at the Dive but it was a little too crowded for my taste and I wasn’t feeling like drinking so I didn’t even get my buzz on. But that’s alright.

The next weekend, this last one, my Aunt Laura and I drove up to my Aunt Jenny’s house to spend the night and visit. I knew I would need all the energy I could get for this weekend. Without going into too many details, let’s just say that it was very stressful and overwhelming. I first would like to say that I absolutely adore my mom’s side of the family. I love spending time with them. However, lately I have had to endure lots of “heavy discussions” and I have learned a lot about each one of them, some things I would rather have not known. When it comes to my family, I like to stay innocent and pretend that everything is perfect like it has always been. Okay, let’s get back on track here. My aunt and I went up because we were supposed to have “family meeting” but it was cancelled at the last minute. We decided to go up anyways because we thought it would be nice to visit and we could also talk about things. Plus I was really looking forward to seeing my little sister. All I can say about seeing her was that it was very hard. It was good, but hard. Then on Saturday morning my aunt and I ventured out to go see my mom where she was staying. It was around lunch time and we both had to pee and we got lost in central Minnesota. Who would have known that there were two County Road 11s, two County Road 3s AND two County road 38s within 20 miles of each other! We sure didn’t know. Neither of us brought a GPS so I called up Phil to have him find us and point us in the right direction. Well of course he didn’t know where we were because he thought we were over by the other County Roads where we were supposed to be and at that point we didn’t know there were two sets. Anyways, long story short, we turned around, oh about 4 times, (neighbors probably thought we were crazy) and we got on the right track and arrived at our destination. We hung out with my mom and talked a little while and went out for coffee at a cute little coffee shop. Then we headed the 3 hour drive home.

Well, that is all that has happened since I last wrote that is even somewhat bloggworthy. Hopefully I can get some more excitement in my life so I have more to write about. Right now it is pretty much---boring. Wake up, get ready, drive to work, work for 8 hours, drive home, eat dinner, do homework, watch TV, go to sleep, repeat. I expect change in my life for the coming year (all good I hope)! All I have to look forward to at the moment is getting my hair done tomorrow and then day after Thanksgiving shopping!

Life is complicated. That is one thing I know to be true! When I think about the future my mind goes a million miles per hour. There are so many things that I want to do and accomplish. One major thing on my mind right now is MONEY! That is probably one of the top 5 things on everyones mind isn't it! I don't feel like I need to be rich to have happiness or anything but I wish that I could feel secure and not have to worry month to month about paying the bills! I want to be able to buy a house within a year and I don't think that can happen with my budget and my income. The longer I can't afford a house, the longer I am going to waste my money away on rent! I don't think I can get a better job right now unless I go back to school OR I wait it out at my job and hope to get a promotion. That is a tough choice that I don't know how to make. What should I do? Should I spend a ton of money and go back to college and get a degree as a paralegal? OR should I work for a couple years where I am at and hope to get a promotion from a receptionist to a paralegal? The second choice would be a gamble but I know it can be done if I work hard and someone else quits. "sigh" I've been going back and forth on that for a while and still don't know what to do...